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Re: The (un)happy thread v4.0
« Reply #1280 on: June 06, 2016, 04:28:37 AM »

Well, today was horrible as my unreliable coworker continued to be unreliable. Hoping she turns up for work tomorrow, but I really don't care because I'm on vacation and I let my phone run out of time so no one can call me.

As for other things:
-- I don't actually remember how long I've been without soda as I stopped counting a while ago, but I remain soda free so add that to the last tally.
-- I also remain caffeine free, though I really could have used it today.
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Re: The (un)happy thread v4.0
« Reply #1281 on: June 06, 2016, 09:07:07 AM »

I was sick my days off. Got better in time to return to work. Did a coworkers hair though, and now everybody in town is excited for me to open a salon.
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Re: The (un)happy thread v4.0
« Reply #1282 on: June 07, 2016, 10:48:30 AM »

I had a job interview today! As far as I can tell, it'll essentially just be temporary work until I can (hopefully) get something in Quality Assurance. I'm doing a course for that in July so after that I should be able to really get something good.
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Re: The (un)happy thread v4.0
« Reply #1283 on: June 07, 2016, 06:56:31 PM »

Yay Gorath for job interviews.
Yay Aur for having shit together.
Yay James for vacation (hell yes).
Yay GO for killing it at work.


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*is grumpy, but really is glad you guys are doing well*
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Re: The (un)happy thread v4.0
« Reply #1284 on: June 11, 2016, 05:46:36 AM »

Messaged an old friend/flame congratulating them on the recent positivity their art has received and in return got a reply about it, their life, and their friends that was so negative that it makes me look like an optimist. This happens every time I reach out. They don't want my help and I'm f**ked up enough that I can't offer much anyway. It has been liked this for years now.
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Re: The (un)happy thread v4.0
« Reply #1285 on: June 12, 2016, 07:08:15 AM »

Try being more positive.
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Re: The (un)happy thread v4.0
« Reply #1286 on: June 15, 2016, 10:45:12 AM »

Apparently I'm the creator of this actual thread. That can't be right. Doesn't sound like me at all.
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Re: The (un)happy thread v4.0
« Reply #1287 on: June 15, 2016, 10:56:18 AM »

Apparently I'm the creator of this actual thread. That can't be right. Doesn't sound like me at all.

That's because I combined all (un)happy threads and spliced off the other 300 pages. Once this one reaches 101 pages, the first 100 pages will join the other 300 in the archive. And so on, and so on.
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Re: The (un)happy thread v4.0
« Reply #1288 on: July 12, 2016, 05:59:32 AM »

I'm up and down a lot recently. My mood is just swinging away. Pretty sure most of you know the story and are now tired of listening to me complain. The shortest version of the events that I can come up for those not in the know or ignoring me:

My relationship has been awful for a few years now, but I don't have much confidence in myself and my already low self-esteem started burrowing so it could reach new lows. I've decided to break things off with her several times and always talked myself out of it because...

1) I'm afraid.
- I'm afraid of what she might do. I don't see her being happy with the situation and I can see her being violent.
- I'm afraid of what comes next. I don't like being alone. I feel lonely enough as it is and it is a miserable feeling... it only gets worse from here.
- I'm afraid that this is it for me as far as relationships go. I don't know why anyone would want to be with me. And given that I have failed every single time I've somehow gathered the courage to ask someone out, I'm pretty sure no one would. I mean, unless they are looking to take advantage of me.

2) It is convenient. I am unhappy and I hate myself and things are only getting worse and worse, but it is easier than being alone and lonely and slowly turning further inward and bitter.

3) I often feel as though I deserve this situation.

I've decided to stop talking myself out of it and pull the trigger. My original plan was to do it this coming Spring, when I would have the funds to buy a car and wouldn't be forced to walk to work. It is an awful reason, I know, but look how long I've already lasted. A few months seems like a long time, but it really isn't.

Except when it is. The above is both a high and a low. I am eager to get this over with. I want to be happy. Yes, I'm still afraid, but this has been a long time coming and I just can't do this anymore. I am angry all the time. I'm perpetually broke. And I've found myself falling for someone else.

She's a coworker, someone who I have known for just about five years and whom I have always had a very high opinion of. I haven't always had a romantic interest in her, but that has developed slowly over the past year or so and rapidly over the past few months. I don't know if she is interested. I doubt that she is. I know many of the guys she has been interested in over the years and I am the exact opposite of them. She knows of my situation now though and has been encouraging me to get on with it and try to be happy.

So... I am. The months I had planned to wait have shrunk to a matter of weeks. Yes, I am still afraid. I am not keen on being stranded without a car, but at least I will be getting exercise. I'm hoping that when the time comes and I ask my coworker if she'd like to go on a date, she'll say yes, even if my life will be kind of a mess for a while to come. I have my doubts and those doubts really slam me into a low mood, but I can't turn back now.
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Re: The (un)happy thread v4.0
« Reply #1289 on: July 12, 2016, 08:57:17 AM »

Once at the bottom, the only way out is up. Cut yourself some slack, if you can lay off the juice for so long then you can do this as well.  :)
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Re: The (un)happy thread v4.0
« Reply #1290 on: July 12, 2016, 09:26:25 AM »

Quitting soda was surprisingly easy. I doubt what's coming will follow suit.
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Re: The (un)happy thread v4.0
« Reply #1291 on: July 12, 2016, 10:50:16 AM »

Woman aye...

I'm sure you'll do the right thing James.
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Re: The (un)happy thread v4.0
« Reply #1292 on: July 12, 2016, 09:15:43 PM »

It will be freeing and liberating and imagine how much you'll save on cigs.

And when you're feeling down we will always be around to talk you up again.
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Re: The (un)happy thread v4.0
« Reply #1293 on: July 16, 2016, 08:05:25 AM »

Jamesy, I know I haven't been participating in chat, but I have been occasionally re-reading some. It sounds like an awful situation, and one you'll be well rid of. You can f**king do it! Youuuu caaannnn dooo iiit! (Alternately, just imagine me silently nodding behind Aur).



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I'm currently a bit stressed, but pretty good overall. The other night, at a friend's "I Broke Up With My Girlfriend" Party, I managed to get drunk enough to eat a raw hamburger => minor food poisoning and simultaneous hangover => lots and lots of puking. It was very unpleasant. But I am healthy now. Yay.
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Re: The (un)happy thread v4.0
« Reply #1294 on: July 18, 2016, 08:16:33 PM »

 I hate my job. Pay is good, management isn't. I spend hours face down on the counter because there is absolutely nothing left to do/clean. And no customers...
Someone really needs to consider restructuring the schedule just for that purpose.
On another note, even though our local elections have already happened, I am apparently joining town council and possibly running for mayor next term. Our mayor comes into my store every night and I'm constantly nagging at him and throwing ideas at him for what could be done to help revive our town a bit and he told me I had to do all the work and bring the info to the current council and if I don't run for anything next term he's gonna pencil me in.
Brittany the politician... but I hate politics...
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Re: The (un)happy thread v4.0
« Reply #1295 on: July 19, 2016, 03:21:19 PM »

My six year relationship has come to an end.
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Re: The (un)happy thread v4.0
« Reply #1296 on: July 20, 2016, 05:02:55 PM »

Tough call James,  but you made it. Well done.
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Re: The (un)happy thread v4.0
« Reply #1297 on: August 04, 2016, 08:31:14 AM »

Tomorrow is Friday.

And breathe.
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Re: The (un)happy thread v4.0
« Reply #1298 on: August 04, 2016, 10:57:35 PM »

I have the weekend off. Yay. But I have a cold and cut back on coffee. So I'm actually sick and tired.

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Re: The (un)happy thread v4.0
« Reply #1299 on: August 23, 2016, 06:26:59 AM »

I feel like I am getting sick. It is too early in the season for this crap.
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